when people who have treated you like absolute shit are sad
" ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ "
I wish I could tell you:
1.) That I didn’t mean to self loath I was just so hurt that I didn’t know what to say.
2.) That I should’ve supported your choice and asked you if you were okay.
3.) That it’s not that I don’t want to talk to you it’s that I’m scared I’ll say something stupid again.
4.) That I do care, every bit of me does but I don’t want to smoother you anymore.
5.) How much it hurt when you said the words that broke me.
6.) How much I really just want to hold you.
7.) How to be happy, but I have to be happy myself.
8.) That everything will be okay.
9.) That I’m sorry for every shitty thing I’ve ever done to make you sad or even cry.
10.) That I’m ready to move on, but I can’t because I’m still stuck in the glue trap that is you." - (via warm-under-covers)